When I took a life away, stripped of all its hopes and dreams,
Didn’t know that she was there, it’s played again in all my scenes.
It follows me around, weighing down with guilt and shame,
I thought I’m in control, I’ll just shoulder all the blame.
My father and my daughters are reminders of my past,
When I made that little girl breathe the breath that was her last.
Ever since that fateful day, I’ve carried this around,
Slowly losing parts of me, tryna’ find the solid ground.
Everything comes back to us. Story never seems to change,
Payback for the pain I caused, then let it rearrange.
I finally realize now what I didn’t know before,
That it wasn’t all my fault, it was only fuckin war.
Nothing feels the same when it’s all dark and gray,
Shadows of the past get erased with each new day.
Taking steps, moving forward trying to stay on solid ground,
Embrace a life – no guilt or blame, in this new world I found.
Things always happen for a reason, nothing’s left to chance,
Like when Dani runs up to me and she begs me for a dance.
I look at their faces and I only see my past,
Dreaming of a day when I don’t gotta live half-mast.
Saw it as a curse, but I know that it’s a blessing,
Three daughters to remind me – of what I could be missing.
Dad used to smoke a pack a day and never saw the doc,
No wonder he got cancer and we lost him to the clock.
All the awful things – that we did while we were there,
In name of God and country, we all did our share.
God was there through everything, I thought he made it happen,
But then he lift me up to show me that I’m not forgotten.
I finally realize now what I didn’t know back then,
To live like no tmrw, my past can be my friend.
Nothing feels the same when it’s all dark and gray,
Shadows of the past get erased with each new day.
Taking steps, moving forward trying to stay on solid ground,
Embrace a life – no guilt or blame, in this new world I found.
Future is ahead of us, but don’t think you’re forgiven,
The only thing that’s guaranteed is that you’ll hurt again.
It’s funny how the hurt doesn’t come from any pain,
It’s the thought of not seeing – the sun through all the rain.
But know you’re not the only one weathering this storm,
There are millions of us just like you. You are but the norm.
I try to tell this to myself, each and every day.
Today is all but over, and tmrw’s a new day.
I finally realize now, what I’ve come to know at last
That today isn’t yesterday, my future’s not my past.
Nothing feels the same when it’s all dark and gray,
Shadows of the past get erased with each new day.
Taking steps, moving forward trying to stay on solid ground,
Embrace a life – no guilt or blame, in this new world I found.
Nothing feels the same when it’s all dark and gray,
Shadows of the past get erased with each new day.
Taking steps, moving forward trying to stay on solid ground,
Embrace a life – no guilt or blame, in this new world I found.
So don’t blame yourself… It’s gonna be ok.
So don’t blame yourself… It’s gonna be ok.
So don’t blame yourself… It’s gonna be ok. …